Remember O Man

‘Remember O Man that thou art dust
And unto dust shalt thou return’

There some moments which really need the old words. Ash Wednesday is one of them – my reflection as I sat in our Cathedral on Wednesday evening. They weren’t using the old words of course for the Imposition of Ashes. But that didn’t matter because I heard them anyway.

It was another of those moments at which something happens – there is some soul-stirring content to what is going on as forehead is marked with ash.

Clinically-minded soul that I am, I decided in the end that it was to do with proportionality. I was of course being asked to face my worm-ness. But also to see that all the push and shove, all the effort and rushing about, all the attempts to resolve the unresolvable ….. those things are important but they aren’t ‘the thing itself’. So strangely and unexpectedly there was an invitation to lay down some things and to focus on the main business.

And that was tough but welcome

Quite Something

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Just in case you haven’t popped in to have a look. This is the newly-restored St Andrews Cathedral – Cathedral of the Catholic Archdiocese of Glasgow. Magnificent.

I was next door yesterday for a meeting of Action for Churches Together in Scotland – about which I shall exercise an appropriate Lenten self-denial. But in the matter of doors, I am amazed how many churches make it difficult to find the way in. They say that, if you want to find out how difficult it is to get to talk to yourself – as it were – that you should ring yourself up. The same applies to the science of getting into churches. The Cathedral defeated me completely at 10 am but persistence was rewarded later on.

Remember: ‘I had rather be a doorkeeper in the house of the Lord/Than to dwell in the tents of ungodliness’

About the SEC

I’ve been doing a bit of writing recently for the Church Times. You may find this article of interest as a view of where the SEC is and may be heading. The Church Times is happy for it to be used and reprinted in congregational magazines, etc., if they are acknowledged.

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Lost in Space

Couldn’t find the car yesterday in the Ferrytoll park and Ride. It helps to look on the right floor. Been there so often lately that it is hard to remember. Bit of a fool standing in the middle pressing the zapper and getting no answering greeting from the car.

Basically there is no quick and efficient way of getting from Perth to Edinburgh.

I have given up on the train again – which I do periodically. Dr Beeching removed the direct railway line so the service is indirect and slow. Scotrail have done their best with more trains. But I keep missing trains because I can’t get through the traffic to the station. I don’t know whether I can park when I get there. And Perth Station is enormous and involves huge walking. Oh and there’s no wifi on the train. The best thing is that it is 3 minutes from the train at Haymarket – where Bertie got off thinking he was in Glasgow – to our General Synod Office

So it’s back to the bus. Kinross Park and Ride means I don’t have to go into Perth. The Ferrytoll means that I can pick up any bus going across the Forth Bridge towards Edinburgh. And it’s free and there’s wifi.

No getting away from the grandeur of Scottish geography. My day yesterday was a meeting of our Provincial Standing Committee in Edinburgh followed by a Memorial Service in St Andrews. I realised when I got home that nearly four hours were spent travelling – nearly 200 miles driving and two buses.

Knowing what I believe and believing what I know

You may have noticed the controversy about the poll from the Richard Dawkins Foundation

Basically the premise is that many of those who self-identify as Christian lack even a basic knowledge of the faith they claim to hold. Giles Fraser on Radio 4 Today did as good a job as anyone has in dealing with Dawkins when he showed that he in turn was unable to quote the full title of the Origin of Species.

So I thought a bit about gaps in my knowledge …

Anything to do with accounts, cash flow projections, balance sheets, etc. I sign them trusting to the integrity and professionalism of those who prepare them. But I have no intuitive ability to understand them

Cars

The doctrine of the Atonement

Most things to do with feelings and human relationships

But more seriously, the conversation reminded me of something which I learnt early on in ministry. People in congregations may not have degrees in theology. But they have an instant and intuitive recognition of two things. They know if you are ‘going through the motions’ – if the embers aren’t glowing as they should. And they know if you are preaching – well not heresy – but just stuff which is not orthodox.

And there’s more. Any pastor who has spent time with people at crisis moments of their lives will know that what matters is whether one is sustained by faith – not that one is articulate about it.

With the Great and the Good

Most of the time I make do with the trivial round and common task but sometimes other things break in

I’m on my way home from a second visit to London in less than a week

The first was for the Dinner which the Lord Mayor holds at the Mansion House for Anglican bishops from the British Isles – marking the General Synod of the Church of England. I feign a certain diffidence about these things. But it’s remarkable and there are lots of old friends. You’ll want to know that Alison had the most delicate expression of tartan – so we kept our end up.

Today I have been at a faith leaders’ gathering at Lambeth to mark the Queen’s Diamond Jubilee. I suppose that had a little flavour of a ‘moment of history’ – and it was a remarkable inter-faith gathering. The Queen’s ability to shake hands and be interested in people is something which one can only admire

Meanwhile – as you know I like the juxtapositions of things. I was sitting in Waterloo Station this morning having a restorative cup of coffee and dictating e mails on my IPhone for Sharon – when a pigeon scored a direct hit on my Kindle. Ah well …

Inching forward by leaps and bounds

I often think about the nature of change and how it works. One yearns naturally for the ‘great breakthrough’. But it usually doesn’t happen like that. Sometimes – perhaps in the context of worship or something which is worship-related – there is a transformational moment when you know that something has slipped into place

And at other times it’s patient working together in good faith – down in the trenches but with at least one eye on the vision. It’s been a bit like that this week – 36 hours with the College of Bishops and a further meeting of the Next Steps Group which is carrying forward the Whole Church Mission and Ministry policy. As reality TV, it would not pull in the viewers. No single revelatory moments. But at the end of it a quiet and shared feeling that some difficult issues are beginning to give way before us. I’m thinking particularly of our efforts to address the question of full-time training and of younger ordination candidates – the group from whom the future leadership of our church will come.

I did a bit of nipping in and out. You may have heard this phone in on BBC Scotland about Assisted Dying

http://www.bbc.co.uk/iplayer/console/b01bmrrp

I did a Thought for the Day on Charles Dickens but the new version of WordPress is defeating my efforts to upload it. Anyway Archbishop Rowan’s sermon in Westminster Abbey was much better

And now off for a little glam – dinner at the Mansion House with the bishops of the Church of England. You’ll find us somewhere south of the salt methinks

Retreat again

I never did quite get around to talking to myself about why it is important to go on retreat – as I did in January. I don’t find it easy. You can’t just ‘flick a switch’ and imagine that you can sort of do the monk thing. Life isn’t like that. But I think I am getting a bit better at understanding what I am hunting around for – or what is hunting around for me.

I like being with the Benedictines in Rostrevor. I mean that I like that in the same way as I hope people will like being in our congregations. The monks are a family – obviously so. They have warmth and manifest humanity and, even if that was all there was, it would be immensely refreshing. I don’t know whether I mentioned that the Iron Lady told me a bit about why I go on retreat. She was strong – had immense self-belief – passionate about what needed to be done. And at some point, she passed over the line from being a strong and determined leader to being simply impossible – as her rant at the cabinet table demonstrated. It’s the spiritual danger of leadership – where inner conviction passes across into non-negotiable rigidity. Retreat gives you an innoculation against that and it doesn’t wear off for a while.

When you’ve had the innoculation, you tend to pick up things which reinforce it. Reading the Imitation of Christ – on my Kindle on the bus since you ask – I tripped over, ‘He who knoweth how to walk from within …. ‘ And I particularly liked a line from Psalm 18 which I never remember noticing before: ‘You lengthen my stride beneath me ..’ I wonder what that might be about?

Atonement?

There are resonances for those of us who are beginning to face towards Lent and Holy Week. That one should bear the sins of many is – however we understand it – part of how God deals with human sinfulness.

So Stephen Hester gives up his bonus and Sir Fred Goodwin is stripped of his knighthood. But it seems to me that these responses fail to satisfy. They feel more like unhealthy scapegoating than an atonement which resolves. There are micro and macro dimensions to this.

The micro first … When clergy find themselves in difficulties – attempting to sustain a position which is threatening to become unsustainable, I sometimes suggest that the better thing is to make a concession early on at a time of one’s own choosing and to present it as a helpful flexibility – rather than to have it wrung out of one under pressure as a grudging giving way. Stephen Hester would have been wiser to recognise that he needed to give way early on the issue of his bonus – understanding that in some respects he had become a representative/symbolic figure and that this was not entirely directed at him personally. On the stripping of Fred Goodwin’s knighthood, I can’t say that I feel strongly at all. It is not a pretty sight. It says as much about the honours system as it does about Fred Goodwin. But then churches have an affection for exotic titles which is in inverse proportion to their significance. So I’ll stay out of that one.

And for the macro .. Well we are still working through the consequences of what happened to our financial system in 2008. My sense of how things are is that people feel significantly poorer and they fear that it will get worse before it gets better. There is some element of deep-seated anger about all this – what they trusted as a reasonably stable financial system quite suddenly ceased to be so. The Occupy Protests across the world had the potential to become a significant extra-political ‘people movement’ through which those feelings could be expressed. But that seems to have been lost.

So we are left with this rather unsatisfying pursuit of bankers as a substitute for a comprehensive political and social response which would make some clear statements about the kind of society which we are now going to build. Yes I do think that the pay of people like Stephen Hester is excessive. Having been central to the failures, it is risky for bankers to suggest that they are the people best placed to sort it out – and that, if they are not rewarded as they have been before, they will take their talents elsewhere. No wonder the pressure builds.

But for me it isn’t really about that. Like any ‘man or woman at the ATM’, I have almost no ability to determine whether a banker’s pay represents reward for success or failure. What I care about is proportionality. I believe that societies in which the gap between rich and poor is smaller tend to be more contented societies. And we have lost that – lost it to the secular individualism which says that whatever is all right for me is all right.

The fact that the Stephen Hester and Fred Goodwin issues have been played out in Scotland would suggest that this is an issue for us as much as for any other society. Yet one of the things which I like about Scotland is our ability to be rather more communitarian than other places. And in the end, it isn’t just finance or politics or community. It’s spiritual – rooted in beliefs and values.

Ouch!

Did you see Melanie Phillips, Daily Mail columnist, on Question Time last night. She pointed out that most clergy stipends are less than the proposed benefit cap at £26000. LBW for bishops, I think?

I’m obviously not getting out enough. But did you see John Redwood on Wednesday’s Newsnight responding to a question about his understanding of the roots of English nationalism? He suggested that it was rooted in resistance to Europe. I’ve seen enough of nationalism which is founded on negative imaging of others.